I haven't been on here much lately. When I have, it's been melancholy or generally whiny. So I'm going to put out a positive vibe and hope it is uplifting for someone more than me!
My friend Kelly first brought this posting into my life a few years back. So in her honor, here is my ABCs of Thankfulness 2009.
A is for Allison, firstborn, bright shining star in the drama queen-in-training galaxy. My Princess, my heart.
B is for Body Combat with Curtis, Suzanne, Jentry, Kristin, Aurora, Stan, Susan, and everyone else! Never knew punching and kicking could be so addictive.
C is for Car. New to me and has been oh so much fun! Maddie the Acura MDX
D is for Dog-- better known as Bandit the Wonderdog! Even if he repeatedly tears up Allison's wall..... I love my furry dog
E is for Emily. My sweet petunia pea blossom, constant smile from the powder puff linebacker
F is for Family and Friends old and new! Those people who don't care that I'm light years away from perfect. They just pull me through. (hey...that rhymed a little)
G is for Generic Jenga. A new game played with some of the best friends I have made in the adult journey called life! Jen, Roopal, Jenn (and the halves that make them whole Joe, Neelay, and Keith), and Mudslides.... :)
H is for Heidi and Josh. Two new friends who help me out whenever I ask, with whatever I ask. They are also good for a random spontaneous dinner parties... how can that be a bad thing? :)
I is for Ice cream. The *best* incentive I have found to get my kids to eat all their dinner.
J is for Jennifer or "Hot Jen", how ever you might know her! The person I can count on for an ear, a shoulder, a personal shopper, or a trip of spontaneity! Whatever I need, she can help me.
K is for Kelly and Joel. 2009 was a special year for them. I was blessed to join them a couple times. Thanks for a beautiful wedding to attend, and a great weekend to forget stress for a moment or two.
L is for Laughter! I will take all the laughter I can get, as long as no one is seriously hurt in the making!
M is for Melissa and Memorial Day 2009. She came to visit and joined a wonderful weekend. My soul twin from the west coast!
N is for Nickelback. Some great music that can describe a mood or soothe a savage...kinda.... ;)
O is for Omeprazole.....also known as Prilosec OTC.
P is for P!nk (the singer not the color). "Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air? Have you ever looked fear in the face and said 'I just don’t care'?"
Q is for Questions answered and life chapters closed.
R is for Rick. A friend who showed up out of *nowhere*, and has stuck around with humor, advice, perspective, and irreverence whenever needed.
S is for Suzanne!!! What a supportive friend with glue, wine, or Body Combat whenever I need it! My friend who will keep me honest, "protected", and strong!
T is for Tiger Football! Mizzou-Rah! Very satisfying victory over the dreaded Jayhawks.... MIZ--ZOU!
U is for University of Missouri Healthcare--- and my job! And alcohol, smoking, and the poor choices people make on a daily basis.
V is for Vancomycin, Riphampin, and Ceftazidime the fun antibiotic cocktail my dad is using to kick some MSSA
W is for Wall-E the movie that makes the Princesses happy, and me think there might be hope for my love life. If robots can figure it out without extensive re-programming, maybe I can too.... ;D
X is for X-rays used during my dad's cardiac cath. Without that procedure, I am not sure he would still be here to enjoy 2010.
Y is for Yesterday's mistakes. Learn from them, but leave them as I move on to today and tomorrow. My new goal for 2010.
Z is for Zyrtec. My companion, my friend.
I am sure I forgot someone and something. I am looking forward to the finish of 2009 and start of 2010.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
the lovers, the dreamers, and me....
The Rainbow Connection
Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions but only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some
Choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it
The rainbow connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that,
And someone believed it
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing,
And what do we think we might see.
Someday we'll find it
The rainbow connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
All of us under its spell
We know that it's probably magic.
Have you been half-asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound that
Calls the young sailors
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be.
Someday we'll find it
The rainbow connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
La da da dee da da do
La da da da da dee da do
Originally performed by Kermit the Frog
Lyrics and Music by Paul Williams and Ken Ascher
Do you have anything you don't really want to admit to your friends, much less yourself? (I'll make that a rhetorical, so don't worry about facing anything too soon.... ;) OK.....here I go.... I've got the nerve, the courage, the moxy. Not too long ago, I said outloud something I have been avoiding for a few months: I want to matter to someone. More acutely, I want to be loved. Sole crushingly, seriously, "can't live my life without you" loved. As I re-read my blog posts, I figure you, the faithful reader, already have this figured out. BUT I have been lying to myself that it doesn't matter and I can and will live without.
When you have your world view shattered and life dreams stolen, it is hard to consider allowing yourself to share your life with another. Not so sure I could find all the pieces of my heart to give away again anyway....
There are two beautiful little girls who don't need more confusion. It is hard enough for me to make sense of a failed marriage, so I can't fathom what it has meant to them. Every now and again, the Princess makes comments about daddy being gone. I almost had to pull off the road when she told me it was her fault her daddy move to a new place. I tear up typing it, and cringe facing it. So why dear Lord, do I have that innate desire to have someone around?
I guess that is where Kermit the Frog popped up. Poor Kermit
Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions but only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some
Choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it
The rainbow connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that,
And someone believed it
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing,
And what do we think we might see.
Someday we'll find it
The rainbow connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
All of us under its spell
We know that it's probably magic.
Have you been half-asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound that
Calls the young sailors
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be.
Someday we'll find it
The rainbow connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
La da da dee da da do
La da da da da dee da do
Originally performed by Kermit the Frog
Lyrics and Music by Paul Williams and Ken Ascher
Do you have anything you don't really want to admit to your friends, much less yourself? (I'll make that a rhetorical, so don't worry about facing anything too soon.... ;) OK.....here I go.... I've got the nerve, the courage, the moxy. Not too long ago, I said outloud something I have been avoiding for a few months: I want to matter to someone. More acutely, I want to be loved. Sole crushingly, seriously, "can't live my life without you" loved. As I re-read my blog posts, I figure you, the faithful reader, already have this figured out. BUT I have been lying to myself that it doesn't matter and I can and will live without.
When you have your world view shattered and life dreams stolen, it is hard to consider allowing yourself to share your life with another. Not so sure I could find all the pieces of my heart to give away again anyway....
There are two beautiful little girls who don't need more confusion. It is hard enough for me to make sense of a failed marriage, so I can't fathom what it has meant to them. Every now and again, the Princess makes comments about daddy being gone. I almost had to pull off the road when she told me it was her fault her daddy move to a new place. I tear up typing it, and cringe facing it. So why dear Lord, do I have that innate desire to have someone around?
I guess that is where Kermit the Frog popped up. Poor Kermit
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